i never understood why u neva just tell me the truth if u wanted fo be wit justin u coulda just told me y u had to play me and my family acting like u wanted to be with me… being intimate with two people and lying about it back and forth itll catch up with you eventually all this hurt n shit coulda been stopped if u coulda just been honest i no believe you tell me u only love me n shit when u stay tellin him the same shit all ur lies n shit will catch up to you whats done in the dark will be brought to the light i hope u finally goin understand the importance of honesty u cant build a relationship on lies so maybe this time when u tryin fo work shit out wit him u aint playing me at the same time so sick of ur childish games i hope u happy… and kinda sad u totally fine wit the shit u did goodbye and farewell my first true love…

conscience: “put down that blade……….”

the way it was when we first met
how perfect i fit in your arms
the way you said i look beautiful, even though i know im not
the happiness that we shared
that silly butterfly feeling everytime i seen you
the way you looked into my eyes
those long phone calls til 2 in the morning
the way you use to hold me when i was cold
the things you did to try and “butter my toast”
the way we argue, and laugh about it later
how we spent lots of time together
most of all, i miss the way you told me you love me…
—-and now you dont.

baby i really love spending time with you. thank you for everything. i cant wait to see you =D i love you grumpy gills.

that ill always love you. and im sorry for all the pain that you go through because of me. this bullshit will end, i promise you. please dont leave me. <3 032009